Wanna see my (possible) new room?!

Hey guys!

With my big decision to put my schooling on pause came major relief. I found myself much more excited to get out of bed in the morning these past few days and I find myself super pumped to get out in the world, which is something I haven't felt in a while. My one dark rain cloud that is looming over me (besides the typical "am I making the right decision" worries) is the fact that, if I don't go back to school next year, I will probably have to move back home with my parents. 

Now, besides the fact that I am a normal human being and find the idea of 

moving back in with my parents after I've experienced living 8 hours away for 2 years extremely unappealing, I will be very disappointed- scratch that, heartbroken- to no longer get to live in my apartment. 

Well, I guess it isn't my apartment YET, but as of May 1st, my roommates T and Z and I will be moving into a beautiful place that I (yes, me...to add salt) found. This place is everything I looked for in a downtown apartment. It is much more affordable than anything else that we have come across since we will be turning it into a 3-bedroom by placing me in the secondary living room area. Yes, that does mean that I don't get a door but instead will be given a curtain, but that also means HARDWOOD FLOORS, or how about A FIREPLACE. Have I mentioned the TWO WINDOWS plus A BALCONY?!

Here are a couple pics of "my" room. 

To put this in perspective, I must tell you about my current room. I live in the basement of a tiny 4-bedroom/1-bathroom apartment. To say that my room is small is a massive understatement. My room, which is completely void of any windows (completely illegal in my city), barely fits my single bed, small desk and book shelf. It has no formal closet but instead has what looks like a 5-foot tall cubby hole with a closet hanger bar. The ceilings are 6'2" max and this causes problems when the 5'10"-me puts on heels to go out. My room is also where all the gas-and-electrical-and-I-don't-know-what-else-closet is, and the separate hot water tank closet. To add icing to the cake, I have a heater that doesn't work so my room is constantly freezing during the cold winter and we have a suspicious and constant smell of mold. I'll be sure to blog soon about the adventures I had in transforming that room- you can trust that that took some work!

Understand my excitement about that room now? Haha. 

Well either way, regardless of my living location next year, I plan on dreaming up a beautiful new design scheme for it. Since I am nearly broke and find it environmentally irresponsible to be buying all new things, I have one goal for this room: EVERYTHING will either be recycled, purchased at a thrift or resale store, found in the garbage, made by yours truly, or already be in my possession. What a project, eh?

If you guys have any ideas that get your DIY and thrifty hearts pumping, I'd love to hear from you!!

Keep it beautiful babes,

xxx

Oh boy.

The first post.

The beginning of the new beginning. 

Have you ever had an "aha!" moment? You know, one of those moments where suddenly all is clear and you have never been more sure of the idea, conclusion, or decision that just popped in your head? 

Well I, personally, am still waiting for my "aha!" moment. I thought maybe I could coax an "aha!" moment out by making the rash decision of dropping out of school mid-second semester of my sophomore year (which, by the way, I did yesterday). The way I saw it was that, once I ballsed-up and took that inevitable plunge, things would just fall into place and the "aha!s" would begin pouring from the heavens. No joke, I even tried repeating "aha!" over and over again to myself to kick start the action, but my mind- and life- remained "aha!"-less. 

So I guess that leaves me here, pushing and striving for that perfect, ideal and destined life that I cannot yet picture. My goal with this blog is to give up worrying about my future and focusing on what I am finding beautiful TODAY. I am going to try my best to not fill the screen you are reading with my extreme frustration over the fact that my best friends all know exactly what they want to do with their lives and always have (but I mean seriously, how is that even fair?!), or about my hate of the word "potential" (I think I was given all of the potential genes and none of the passion ones and I am learning that one without the other, to be blunt, makes everything suck). I guess I essentially just want to get back to seeing things and appreciating them. 

I'm a crafty girl, a little bit of a wild child, a great negotiator, a true and honest lover of people and (currently) the world's most insatiable human being and it is nice to meet you. I'll be seeing you around...

xxx

 Here is a photo of the moment I decided that I was going to take time off school, so note the fear and excitement in my eyes. Oh, and yes, I was indeed in the bathroom when I made this life-altering choice.