Saturday, February 20, 2010

Oh boy.
The first post.
The beginning of the new beginning. 

Have you ever had an "aha!" moment? You know, one of those moments where suddenly all is clear and you have never been more sure of the idea, conclusion, or decision that just popped in your head? 
Well I, personally, am still waiting for my "aha!" moment. I thought maybe I could coax an "aha!" moment out by making the rash decision of dropping out of school mid-second semester of my sophomore year (which, by the way, I did yesterday). The way I saw it was that, once I ballsed-up and took that inevitable plunge, things would just fall into place and the "aha!s" would begin pouring from the heavens. No joke, I even tried repeating "aha!" over and over again to myself to kick start the action, but my mind- and life- remained "aha!"-less. 

So I guess that leaves me here, pushing and striving for that perfect, ideal and destined life that I cannot yet picture. My goal with this blog is to give up worrying about my future and focusing on what I am finding beautiful TODAY. I am going to try my best to not fill the screen you are reading with my extreme frustration over the fact that my best friends all know exactly what they want to do with their lives and always have (but I mean seriously, how is that even fair?!), or about my hate of the word "potential" (I think I was given all of the potential genes and none of the passion ones and I am learning that one without the other, to be blunt, makes everything suck). I guess I essentially just want to get back to seeing things and appreciating them. 

I'm a crafty girl, a little bit of a wild child, a great negotiator, a true and honest lover of people and (currently) the world's most insatiable human being and it is nice to meet you. I'll be seeing you around...

xxx

 Here is a photo of the moment I decided that I was going to take time off school, so note the fear and excitement in my eyes. Oh, and yes, I was indeed in the bathroom when I made this life-altering choice.

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